I don't know, honestly. I think I'm going to start Tai Chi in the mornings. I hear it does good things for chemical fluxes in the brain. I don't want anyone to worry, I am not suicidal. Where as I do often think I am worthless and don't do nearly what I could do.. ending it all isn't apart of the equation. And maybe.. if I see people depressed here,, if I post cheer up notes to them it might help me here.