Lost, if you do go to the police, keep the clothes and underwear you went out in that night aside, Don't wash them. He may have left evidence all over your clothes, evidence that could lead to an arrest. Namely semen. That catches him dead to rights. He's toast. Or body hair. He could have left microscopic evidence behind him. There's a very good chance.

There is a thing more crippling than cerebral palsy: the prison of your own mind.