I am taking lamictal and I have seen some drastic changes in moods even when there has been a small decrease in meds or if I didnt take a dose for a few days (I wasnt able to get my script filled).

i do find my mind wonders a lot to suicide and to self harm. i write sometimes, like the thoughts might be from a story or a movie so I can try to distance myself from them. if the suicidal thoughts still remain i try to transition them into something not lethal, like torture and then I try to imagine it happening to someone else, so again i can try to distance myself from the thoughts,

I think about my family and what is important to me. my daughter, she is a baby now but i think about all the different things I want to do with her as she grows up. she will need me. and that gives me more reason then anything in the world to not have any more scars, to not hurt myself, to push myself to be healthy.