Right now I am at a weird place with my depression. I am not depressed all the time but when I am I don't care about anything even getting better. My T has been trying to get me to change my thought patterns but when I am feeling good there aren't any thoughts to change. When I am feeling bad I don't feel like changing and really don't even feel like living. I am my own worst enemy.

Have thought about quitting therapy anyways since my T is leaving. The T I am supposed to switch to will be on maternity leave soon. I am supposed to see her once before she leaves and then weekly when she gets back. I feel sorry for any T that gets stuck working with me. I am not worth their time or aggravation.