Thanks guys. I do know that it will eventually get better but right now it is just eating at me because it has been a constant struggle for nearly a year and a half. I always recite a favorite phrase of mine,: " You must walk thriugh the darkness in order to really appreciate the day light. Morning would not be morning if not for the night before." I don't really know who said it but I live by it. It is amazing to me that (in my own personal beleifs) God seems to have made some people to have a great and wealthy life but some of us were made to always know struggle and hardship. But maybe, just maybe that,as well, may go along with my phrase. How would the poor, disadvantaged folks know that there is something to hope for if we did not have people in this world that was better off than we are. I mean this world would be without hope all together if we had nothing BETTER in the veiw finder. You can hardly hope for something you are not aware of. kinda like the old saying " you won't miss what you've never had". See my point?

I am sorry. I am quite analytical. Maybe that is why I tend to do so well in my psych class.
Oksy bye for now.