I just feel like I frustrate every T I see.
I feel suicidal everyday but I am too chicken to actually ever do anything. So I know I am safe. Even though I had starting cutting for a little while but haven't done it in a couple weeks. I still get the urge to.

My T says I am an overachiever and need to recalibrate my expectations.

She doesn't think it is a good idea for me to stop therapy if I don't have at least a plan to talk to somebody.