I can't seem to get enough sleep. Yesterday, I slept all day long. I would open my eyes for a few minutes, and would try to watch tv, and before I knew it, I had fallen asleep again. Same thing today. I haven't got any energy to do anything anymore. I need to get all the things together for donations, but I just can't get motivated enough to do it. I need to really clean my house better, like it used to be, I never ever would have let my house get to this stage of disarray. Before, I was neat to the point of being obsessive about it, vacuuming 3 times a day. Now, I'm ashamed that this is even my house. I know that my physical problems have gotten much worse over the years, and my kids are making a much bigger mess than when they were little. It was much easier to clean up after them then. But, still, I just can't stand it, and I want to change it. I wish I could afford a housekeeper. Or maybe just send the kids away just kidding (mostly, they have some really great boarding schools). They are at that age where they are really trying every bit of my last nerve, patience and everything else they can try. It's been a difficult couple of years. And I'm at a loss as a mother. I feel like a failure. Maybe going to one of those schools would be the best thing, because I don't know what else to do to help them. And I don't want them to end up going down the wrong road. I'd rather have some kind of intervention now, even if they hate me for it. If it saves them, It would be worth it.