Whether or not you are an alcoholic is irrelavent in my opinion. Why do you people drink? The answer is always "It makes me feel good". The more important thing you should be asking yourself is why do you not feel that good being sober? It's certainly possible and finding out how to do it is the difficult part. You are stated a very emotionally changing experience in your life and you recognize it as being a possibility for your over drinking. That is the first major step. Do I personally think you are an alcoholic? I do not. I do think your type of drinking is deadlier than the average alcoholic. Alcohol poisoning for binge is a very real danger so please take caution. The way I see it is if you need to drink to drown out a problem you have, then you have a problem.