Your in a terrible situation that is for certain..

But your childrens safety and wellbeing is the most important thing .. They ARE living in a very abusive situation daily.. You owe it to your kids to keep them safe and not to sound harsh but your excuses as to why you cant leave makes no sense ..

Put your children first and get away from him anyway you can .. even if you leave with a couple suitcases and go to a shelter ..

You need therapy and your kids will also need some to process the abuse.

Keep you and your children safe