Does anyone here feel like giving up? I hate this disease and what it's robbed me of. I hate the fact that I'm on medications called "anti-psychotics" and I have a severe mental illness. I am so angry about what I have done while manic and psychotic a year ago, I can't even stand the sight of myself in the mirror.
It takes all in me to brush my teeth---a 4-year-old is a more functioning member of society than I am.
Uggggggghhhhh----how do I accept that I have this debilitating disease and make peace with it? How do I care about life again and get on with living when I don't even care if I wake up? It's pretty sad when the only thing you have to look forward to is sleeping because maybe, just maybe you'll have dreams of happiness.
Please someone--tell me how to live and not to just exist with this mental illness. Please.