My day started good. Ten after a few hours starting going down. Now it's crashed and all I wanna do is hurt myself. I'm so angry and upset. I really just want it all to end. I'm tired of fighting. I'm tired of bad memories. I'm confused about some of my past. I'm really just fed up with all the downs.

I want to feel better but I'm tired of waiting. I'm tired of family being pissed at me and trashing me. I'm tired of trying to make ppl happy and failing and the only thing I succeed in doing is becoming more down. I know SUI bad but I really want this hell to end.