Hello, I'm new to this section. I was diagnosed with Complex PTSD last year and in 2007 I was diagnosed with PMDD. I had a lot of wrong diagnoses between 2007 and now which some would say I had Depression, Panic Disorder, Dystiymia etc. I finally got accurate diagnosis. I have all the symptoms of Complex PTSD. The only thing that I haven't gotten diagnosed is what I think I have in addition to C-PTSD and that is D.I.D.

This all started when one therapist told me about the Inner Child but during exercises for the Inner Child I noticed other places showing up that were older and named. I've noticed a few gaps in my memory and I do have a lot of forgetfulness. Nobody has called me by a different name so far so that's good! haha.

But there are times I don't feel like me but like someone else. I've also noticed when I get "triggered" I tend to behave differently depending on what triggered me. I also noticed that places in me are named and when I'm in that place I like different things sometimes or have different goals. I finally stopped pretending that I don't have D.I.D. and treat it as if was D.I.D. Even though I have NOT talked to my psychiatrist yet because I don't want her to think I'm crazy or Schizophrenic or something. And because I'm scared.

I started a scrapbook for those places that are named and even tried talking to them. At first I didn't get responses until one place spoke up. He calls himself Jerath. And from there I've slowly been able to talk to other places. Some places I think have merged because I feel more whole actually.

I really think this is D.I.D. and not me being crazy. My boyfriend has been really supportive and has attested to my symptoms and saying that when I have been in a place, he often times can't get through to me.

Or sometimes he can but I respond and behave as a different person.

I do remember those times but its hazy a bit.

So I'm wondering what your thoughts are. Mostly I am waiting till I get the disability for C-PTSD to see a therapist and while being treated for C-PTSD, tell them about this. I don't feel safe telling my psychiatrist.