It doesn't have to be constant, it can be from triggers and emotional flashbacks depending on how bad they are, you have already recognized some "after" and discussed how bad you were at the time. I think when it is in writing it helps because you can go back when you were struggling and review it, it helped me a lot. I have never changed who I am here, I figure maybe someone might see it and learn from it, why not, maybe if it helps, I always think about that.

How do you live in this world at these times? One day at a time, we are not here for very long, might as well see, learn, and try and share what we can with each other. There have been many bad times in humanity, luckily we had those who learned and shared.

OE