I'm not cheating currently.

I had sexual relationships with a guy On a whim right after she left but it was more out of desperation. I have a high sex drive so going without so long of course I found the first person who would say yes. It was good sex but I am not tempted to even do this while in this relationship.

Btw I mistyped the part about marriage.

With my coworker I have not physically cheated either. My issue is that I have become more compatible with her as we both have high sex drives and my gf has been lacking in this respect that I feel like I want to cheat and I haven't quite set that boundary with my CW. But I don't want to cheat either because I don't really want to hide. I don't feel like I should. This is why I've never cheated in the past because I never felt like having something like this over my head to hide. I was always way more comfortable just being truthful and moving on. But this time obviously I can't do that.

Previous to all this I was in love with her and sometimes I wish it could be how it was but I don't really think I'm that genuinely resilient.