Snail's pace indeed!! We still have so little furniture, for me so few clothes, etc. But I suppose we'll get stuff here and there eventually. Hard to do when you have virtually no money left for such things once the bills are paid and food bought each week. We stayed in a rental home for a few months after being with my parents for a month, and they asked $200 for each pet you brought in and $20 for each added to the monthly rent after that. The rent was already so high. That was impossible, so I had to do without until we got into our new home. First time in 25 years I'd not had a cat in my life. I still had my birds, and we didn't get charged for them. I think just dog or cat. I'm glad I saved my birds but just not the same as a cuddly cat sleeping with you in bed and the like. I really missed it a lot. I'm not sure we ever get over the loss totally. Before the fire, I still cried occasionally over cats I'd lost before, our goat we had to put down, etc. Of course now my most recent loss is in the forefront, and I find myself breaking down all the time at the memory of any one of them. Just figure this will be my life now. Having missing cats is similar to having missing children I think, so I'm always wondering about my 2 that are missing. Are they still alive or not?? Last winter was the worst in 30 years - did they make it through that?? If they're alive, where could they be now?? I finally gave up looking after 3 months because it hit me that any direction I looked in 360 degrees they could be, near or far. I did all I could. Now just pray constantly they'll return if they're still among the living. I watch for them. Yeah, maybe by starting with a small pet, that could help. Tell that to my family!! They all think I need to move on - to them it's done and forgotten about and they don't understand that I'm still struggling. My husband thinks PTSD is a joke and doesn't take anything I say about it seriously, so I have no support at all with any of them. Thanks for the advice. I'm not sure this therapy will work - since I'm charity care I may have to take what I can get. She seems very nice but a little dingy. I've only had one visit so will give her more time. Maybe just talking about things with her will help as she'll actually listen to me and at least realizes I've been through a ton of changes since this happened, the fire being one I actually couldn't have begun to prepare for. Even I hadn't thought of that, but like she said, even when people move they know and have time to prepare, and it's still like one of the largest life stressors even when you have time to deal with it. We'll see...