i dont know why, but i think everything i do is wrong. i feel even more crazy when my parents put me in a clinic hostel and say it´s good for me. my friend says it too. and my crush thinks im crazy, just because im so desperate to be fun and awesome and find my awesome self back again. when i like someone, it´s immediately seen as bad behaviour because i´ve been too ´obsessed´ with people before (i was too desperate showing that i could be nice and fun) another friend said i was an asshat and she was awesome. the only thing i can do is make drama. my friend says im having self-pity. but i dont want to, but i just dont know how to get people back and like me just as before again. im having this problem for like 2,5 years. my parents think im spoiled and lazy and that´s why they sent me here. i just wanna be like before. i did so many stupid things. it doesnt help to suspress these emotions. i tried to ignore it, but i dont even know what im ignoring. i just want to tell everyone i hate them.. but i dont want to either, because it makes it worse.