Thanks Secret, I needed to think about all of this again. I was planning on going in there tomorrow and shutting down to protect myself.

I know with the future benefits, it's a PPO and outpatient or even inpatient sessions are unlimited coverage. So maybe what is the point of me talking about this anymore...

As for the graduation date, that is his term. I don't think he likes to use the word terminate. I don't even want to think about graduating...this is part of what is taking a toll on me.

I'm just wondering, at what point will someone want me around and not try to get me to leave? The list is endless of people throughout my life that have rejected me. does it really have to be my therapist too? My ex-husband recently contacted me and I can't even type out what he told me after years of not hearing from him. The short version...he is sorry that he never loved me and just didn't want to be the one to end it.

That is seven years total wasted of dating him and being married to him. I stayed way longer than I should have to work on that marriage because I thought he wanted it too. So you see, this just keeps happening over and over...

I totally know that I am whining at this point.

Okay so tomorrow I'll re-focus. I need to determine what the real cause of all of this is. Maybe that is the opening line...

Thanks Secret!!!!