Thanks everyone for your replies. I do take meds and I am really hoping to not switch them again. I have been trying to find the right ones for 18 months now.

Baby steps are hard for me I always tend to look at everything at once. I know now I will have to work on it. It is just so hard and I don't feel like doing it.

I find out tomorrow when I will be meeting this new T. If it seems like we can work together I will start seeing her in November and stay with the current T until then. That is if I decide to stick with therapy. I might just start going every other week to see how that feels.