TheTurtleLives
I'm so sorry for your losses. Grief is something that is tough to overcome sometimes. I would suggest you find a therapist that deals with grief, to try and process your feelings, especially, since your emotions are causing suicidal attempts. Please get help soon. Sometimes you just can't do it alone.
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Bipolar I, Depression, GAD Meds: Zoloft, Zyprexa, Ritalin
"Each morning we are born again. What we do today is what matters most." -Buddha