I'm sorry the hospital let you down. I'm glad your friend was there with you. I had a similar experience and it took them 4 hours to figure out what to do with me. I should have left, where they sent me didn't giving any help. I selp harmed at the time, too. It was a rough week until I got out and all I got out of it was an affair with one of the other patient, which ended after 8 months.

Self harm is hard to give up. I know I'm struggling right now and I haven't cut in 10 years. I'm sorry your friend left. I know that makes it really hard on you. I never had a friend I would tell anything of the bad stuff to, but I did find a counselor that seemed to always know what I was thinking. She helped me a lot and I need her really bad right now but she is not close to me anymore. I hope you feel better soon.

I hope you keep coming back to PC. It really is a great place where you can get feedback and support. It's helped me a lot since I didn't have any friends IRL I could talk to.

I hope you feel better soon and break the self-harm