I go between extremes with religion. On suicide attempt I had bible and cross in hand sure I'd burn in hell. All the years I self medicated with drugs the "good" kids treated me like a leper at Catholic School. I went thru a 4 year phase of no sex, drugs, alcohol even cigarettes and church all the time. I went to and taught Sunday school. I bought and highlighted several bibles, study bibles and daily devotionals. My house was covered with crosses and antique Catholic relics (I'm not Catholic). It probably wouldn't have mattered if I wasn't celibate because if a date came over they'd be walking into what looked like a cloistered nun's home. I joined a church a while back, and the welcome Wagon quit sitting with me and went back to their clique. It was awful. Like the high school cafeteria so I quit. Then on a manic spree I sent a hateful FB message to the freaking pastor??!! Yeah, good times. After AA pushed a lot of what I interpreted as religious support I thought about Christianity. I'm a Christian that doesn't believe in organized or for profit religion. I don't believe Christianity is the only path, and for me I can find valuable insight studying other religions. Really the message is basically the same, to love one another.