I thank you all, for those who have given me advice on how I could make my life better for me. However, I am sad to say that I just can't take your word for it. I am sorry that I'm wasting your time. You have done all that you could to help me, but I feel like no matter how hard I try, I'll just be prevented in everyway possible to achieve what I want.

It's like it was meant to be that way. That's how I'm wanted to be. I keep on getting put back in the same place, and change won't be allowed.

You were there for me.

I have failed you and I have failed myself.

I am sorry...