Hi, Monkeybrains. I'm in the same postion right now and understand wanting to end it. I only have a few thread that keep me connected to this world. Even though, I'm still angry and frustrated, I can't disappoint those very few that love me, one I met on here and i know if I disappear she will be hurt.

Find those threads that can hold you in this world until things have a chance to improve. Believe me, it's all I can do to keep going but hold onto the hope things will change. I've had it happen before. There can be that rainbow, but I'm impatient and want it to happen now but I can hang on one more day.