Thanks. I stopped seeing that therapist a few years ago and haven't seen anybody else. I tried to start again with a new therapist, but I had a panic or anxiety attack after the first meeting and cancelled the next.

I probably did experience psychosis briefly after visiting my friend (as the original therapist diagnosed). But I suspect the psychosis was triggered by something such as being date raped by my friend or hypnotized or something supernatural. (I try to be an atheist, but deep down I believe in supernatural.)

Another theory is that my worries about visiting my friend (who I suspect was bisexual and attracted to me) caused me to have psychosis. That is much more in the realm of reality I guess. I was probably beginning to have psychosis as soon as I arrived at the motel to meet my friend. For some reason it hit really hard on the flight home. I thought some mysterious group was out to get me, and I had some hallucinations.

HOWEVER, six months later my friend came to visit where I live. I started feeling like weird coincidences kept happening (supernatural I guess). I went to my friend's hotel room briefly and we were flipping through TV channels. He came over and sat beside me on the bed with his arm behind me. We were sharing an energy drink that he had brought. It made me uncomfortable and I worried that he had drugged the drink, so I stood up and tried to politely poor my drink down the sink. Probably nothing there either.

In some ways, I would rather not know if I was abused as a child. Probably I'm imagining problems that don't exist.

(Sorry to post silly rambling worries.)