If your not seeing a Therapist .. find one .. A therapist can help walk you through accepting Bipolar as part of your life ..If you are seeing a T and its not really helping then its time to find a new one .

Im not sure if you are BP I or BP II .. "most BP I cant take a AD like lexapro as that can cause Mania or anger irritability ... You might want to check with your pdoc .. Maybe your current meds need to be changed but only a doctor can advise you on this.

It takes time to learn how to live with Bipolar but trust me its possible .

Welcome to PC you will find loads of support here