I lost my faith in the god I was brought up to believe in. It happened ages ago. My religious upbringing was somewhat traumatic, so I didn't find it distressing to let go of those beliefs. I actually found it quite freeing. I'm as comfortable with my doubts as I am with my beliefs. I don't need things to be drawn in black and white for me. My personal form of spirituality works for me. That's just me, though. I don't expect others to feel the same way.

It sounds like you're missing your faith and you want it back. If you don't want to lose your belief in God, then it might be good to find ways to rekindle it. If your faith is something that used to bring you comfort, I hope you will find it again and it will bring you comfort again. Perhaps it's just the religion you were part of -- and that religion's interpretation of God -- that doesn't fit with your beliefs now. Perhaps you could research some religions and find one that fits you better. Maybe talking to a pastor of a church that interests you (rather than just reading the Bible) would help. Having a conversation with someone about what you believe and what you question and how you're feeling might be helpful. It's great that you have a therapist, but if you need to talk specifically about God and your questions about faith, a pastor or minister at a church might be the person to talk with. Just a thought.

Best of everything on your spiritual journey.