We've had threads about not being able to make or maintain eye contact with our Ts. But WHY is it so hard? She told me at my session that babies look intently at their mothers but then they look away for a few seconds. I wonder why.

I can look at my T when she's in her normal spot, but she moves her chair closer to hold my hand. I had my eyes closed most of the time because I couldn't look into her eyes. She looked pretty but I don't think that's it. It felt more like fear and shame about her seeing me so closely. I'm not afraid of her I don't think.

So what is it about eye contact, anyway? Why do most people want to look away? Why is it so hard when T is looking at me closely? Maybe I'm afraid she's judging me but I know she's not. Or leftover shyness?