I'm not sad right now, but I've been thinking a lot lately, and I think I just realized something. For years I've noticed that everything feels..."cold". Even the people I'm closest to, as well as my own skin, have something off about them. There's an automatic distance between me and whoever I'm in contact with, like something's telling me that I don't belong there...I'd say it's numbness, but that feels different.
My emotions have this "coldness" to them as well, and only my mind (and my mp3 player) is a haven. I'm not completely sure what this means, but I'm pretty sure it can help with my self discoveries.