It seems as if therapists are not equipped to handle NPD in the least. My Pdoc told me things that made my jaw drop and to be honest I wish I could sit with her for 45 minutes each week. How can you understand me????? Let's give some examples:
When you argue with me I hear nothing until that switch happens and then I become a monster. I break things can even attack you physically without even thinking of any action. I loose my mind so to speak.
When you talk to me about how you feel I understand nothing your telling me. I pretend to pay attention and hope you don't ask me "what did I just say"
You feel happiness, joy, sadness, depression and whatever else. I just feel numb!!!
You can't understand how I can purposely not say something nice just to see what I can get away with(Much more to this one)
I get what I need by any means necessary and don't see that I am hurting you only feel that your against me if im not getting what I need.
I am a genius at making you into what I need, to give me the response and action that was predetermined by me.
You ask me how i feel about certain people and the pain they suffer. You say how does this make you feel?? I don't care, I turn the channel and move on to something I like.
I don't see you for you, I see you for how I can benefit from you
Other times I give you everything you need, happiness, attention, interaction and make you feel as if you got to me and did something special.
Shortly after I go back to me, numb and not ever understanding you.
On the defense at all times just waiting to attack.
FU$& YOU therapists, most of us here would make much better ones then the ones we see I am sure of!!!!!!
I write tonight as I had a crazy episode yesterday, complete lunatic!!!!
Today I am better but I know who I am and it will never be on me because they can't understand me!!!!!!
Some will get it others won't
Love always,
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