i am a spiritual person and belong to an organised religion
i believe in the things my religion teaches and i do have faith... however i find it hard to connect. with my congregation, during personal study and even in prayer. i feel like im outside looking in and i want very much to feel it again.
i dont have issues of blame or feeling like god doesnt care. also my congregation has been really supportive during my ups and downs, not just for me but for my whole family.
its me. im not 3 dimentional in my spirituality right now and i also dont want to just go through the motions. i want to want it but most of the time it just seems so overwhelming.
they say fake it till you make it and thats what im trying to do but its hard.