I have a very difficult time just looking at my T. At first I guess it wasn't an issue but as time has passed I find it incredibly hard to look at him. Lately, I don't think I end up looking at him at all. It's not just feeling vulnerable but, not knowing him and him not understanding things that are so painful....I tend to cry a lot. (FYI, been going to T for way too long...3+ yrs)