No problem and I'm sure you're not wrong that often My view isn't about politics either. I'm not saying I see life clearly enough to understand it perfectly by any means, I just see it in a global sense. And it's such a huge, complex thing that explaining it is very difficult. I'll make an effort. I see clearly enough to know that life has much sadness, tragedy, and suffering for most. In some parts of the world tragedy and suffering is a daily constant. Not from depression but from the circumstances of their lives. Honestly, the majority of us don't treat each other very well in general. We tend to be self absorbed and therefor oblivious at best or apathetic at worst to all the suffering. Or we contribute to it, which is of course worse than being ignorant or apathetic to it. Wealth is valued over lives. We are fascinated and envious of vain and empty headed celebrities. The violent and the criminal are idolized in pop culture.
Even in the smallest ways mankind fails. If we can't treat each other well imagine how we treat everything else. How many pets are abandoned in a year? I don't know the answer but I know that where I live an estimated 80,000 unwanted pets are "euthanized" each year. The animals we use as food sources are treated so badly that it's becoming unhealthy even for us, the consumers of the animals.
We poison our world with chemicals. We hunt animals for sport. We kill them for the alleged therapeutic effects of their sexual organs. Put it all together and it's bleak. I can't speak for others but my depression thins my skin and makes it all hard to ignore and go about my life. Sometimes I wonder if depression is such a bad thing in my case. I suppose it is though because without being crippled by depression I might be more active in helping.
I'm sorry I can't explain it any better. Sometimes the thoughts are clear and words come easily... sometimes not.
It may to you. No insinuation was intended and that is definitely not my view.
I do know that there are people with MI and possibly depression who really don't have a clue to what goes on in the world. The MI aren't that different from other people.
I didn't think I was afraid either, for exactly the same reasons. As death gets closer I'm not so sure about that. If fear comes it won't be the same fears I once had. I suspect that when the time gets closer many new thoughts and emotions will come forth.