I should also mention that i am trying as hard as i can to fix the relationship, I've tried talking to her multiple times but i always get a wall in front of me.

I should also mention that I am not very strong these last weeks as I've experienced a epileptic seizure with a mild to serious heart attack episode last week where i just found myself on the floor with the ambulance in my house and my door broken and they said i was unresponsive for at least 40 minutes as i failed to communicate with anyone and the last message i sent to a person was that i was going to bring water as i was feeling unwell, after that message there was no further communication from myself and the person called the ambulance and the police and also the person came and they found me completely unconscious and they had difficulties in making me respond taking over 15 minutes for myself to respond, from what the doctor said when i fell i hit my head and i was probably in a coma. Anyway i can't explain at the moment what exactly happened because i am not feeling well.