Hi

I do believe my trauma from childhood has a direct correlation to having Major Depression for 10 years as an adult! This is due to the fact that I'm now 'unpacking' the traumas done to me as a child and I find as I do, I'm becoming happier. But happiness is an alien feeling to me because I never experienced it as a kid. Even 'normality' is a strange occurrence and I sometimes freak out when my life is going normal. I want to quickly run back into some pain or trauma memory since it has been familiar to me for so long.