I´m a 30+ year old woman and I´m dealing with several issues that makes me feel stuck in life. I don´t have any diagnoses what I know of but I´m almost sure I´m depressed to a certain degree, mildly or maybe moderately.

I feel that I waste my life just letting the days pass by and at the same time I feel incapable dealing or solving my problems. I have a university degree but have been unemployed for several years since I left my studies. I looked for jobs for a certain time but when I didn´t get any positive answers my self esteem and motivation went down and then I stopped trying.

Now I avoid trying because I don´t know what I want anymore, nothing really gets me going or making me motivated careerwise. I also don´t want to get more negative answers to job appliances and feel even more disappointed and sad.

My next problem is that I´m way behind most others as I´ve never had a relationship and never dated. It makes me feel somewhat not normal and creates anxiety and negative thoughts. At the same time I don´t feel ready to take the step to for example go on a date as I feel down and I can´t really see how a relationship would "help" me.

My third large issue is that I´m quite lonely. I have only one friend and even if I see her rather often I spend most of my time alone. I´ve tried for several years to meet new friends through forums and so on. I met quite a lot of people for coffee and a chat but it never seems to grow into friendship. You feel you don´t have that much in common, you don´t have the same values and so on.

For me the advice "join some leisure activity" is not what I´m seeking for as I´ve already tried this.

Instead perhaps someone here has his or her own experience of dealing with this issues or some proffessional reads my thread and can give me some advice.

I already see a therapist but it´s nearly impossible to get therapy for this issues (as you´re not suicidal or severly depressed) in the country I live. Soon I will not be entitled to therapy any longer and it leaves me with a sense of no hope or no possibility at all to create a worthy life.