my first ad here . my last loss on wednesday b4 last is stil fresh in my body and soul . i thing i lost 1000 dollars at one day , and i am so sad since i took money i shouldn't have taken. i think over all i lost since 2004 2000 dollars and that is on top of 2000 dollars on 2003 , which were on top of maby 6000 dollars on 2002 . my work is unstable, i was high for only 10 days those 10 days b4 that day above, in which i managed 2 win 600 dollars . that gave me a traumatic feeling and given me a big depression and so mush law self esteem

and i am only trying 2 save 3000 dollars to go to canada for a long vacation and maybe find a wife ,
i am probably a bipolar also ,and i have all the difficulties in life that can make anyone normal depressed , - unstable work, difficulties in housing , poverty ,
Does anyone know where i should start and tell me ?

please