Secret,

I don't think I feel guilt but there are definitely embedded messages from my childhood that tell me not to feel; that I am not worth it; that it is self indulgent; ;you know, "I'll give you something to cry about!" When I wrote the letter I was writing about something very painful to me. I was able to tell someone about that in writing. Maybe I should write my t a letter. But then i think I would be too embarrassed to show him. TY for your thoughts.

p.s. what movies did you watch? Maybe I'll rent them.