Anxious and apprehensive. Waiting for a professional to follow through on a promise to me, am apprehensive, because this psychiatrist has been flaky. Sometimes I wonder if he is sadistic. I never say this like that about people, but this is a weird situation which I do not want to explain. I'm going through this alone, as my trusted husband died almost two years ago and I have no children and one sibling whom I believe has narcissistic personality disorder. I don't blame her, but just stay away from her because I cannot allow her to keep hurting me4.