Thank you ssssooooo much everyone. The more I think about I realize for me that was a "fight or flight" response. Well I decided to fly. lol. My doctor is in today until 2. I am going in again today. I just hope the staff from yesterday is not there. One of his staff members is always so rude to me. Once she said" Oh not her again, great." I thought what is your problem. I have left the office in tears many times, maybe that is an issue with her. I dont know, but its her problem not mine. My boyfriend is going to come in with me. I asked him to for more of a comfort zone. My kids will be out in the waiting room with him so I will feel better not sitting there letting my mind do its panic thing. If that cop was there for me, they would have been at my door. So, I just had a really good imagination; nothing wrong with that. He is a doctor so I hope he understands. Like I have said before; I have seen this poor guy turn away in tears when we have spoke before. A long time back he asked for some of my documentation in regards to court etc . He saw many things that totally blew his mind. He was amazed at how the system can work at times. I also gave him some of my documents from womens shelters etc. So he has some idea to our past history. Anyway, once again, I will let you know how it goes and thank you for helping me feel better about this.

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