I was in another car crash yesterday. That is the third since my really bad episode started. All within about 6 weeks.

I already feel terrible and then extra stress keeps appearing. I told work (I am due back in and off SSP from Monday) that I can work but I won't have my car. They have reduced me from 37 hours per week down to 12 because of this.

I am clammy and traumatised and just wish I knew what was wrong with me. I am still awaiting diagnosis.

I now refuse to drive as whatever is happening has taken over me. I can't concentrate. I can't sleep. I can't be myself. And I haven't relaxed in over a year.

I have finally had enough.