So far, have to admit, had a pretty decent day all things considered. Was a bit waylaid by a text from a friend who's been made redundant from work (made a different thread about it) but sent texts back and forth and she's actually going to pop round to see me on Sunday (staff have been encouraging me to brave some home leave again after the disastrous first try, and the wife decided that this Sunday we'd have a quiet BBQ at home).

Had a good chat with the nurse who is in charge of my file (and scares the crap out of me most of the time)... a really good chat... I was focussed and alert and I think it surprised her. We were quite frank with each other... I know she is brutally honest and I said that sometimes I'm not always able to handle the cold truth of situations but I know it would be counter productive if she coddled me or let me get away with slips without being hard on me just to save my feelings.

That I can be stubborn (she nodded) and said that being told 'don't do something' is less helpful to me than actually giving me a reasoned explanation: I elaborated regarded the cutting discussion I mentioned above. She conceded this point.

She brought up me still worrying about the support worker and how it was effecting my mood (wrote today that I had taken an anti-social stance since then as a defence mechanism) and I explained that I worry to the point of crisis until I know exactly where I stand with something... I brought up how waiting for the appointment to be assessed for personality disorder and screened for aspergers was driving me crazy (she questioned the last one and I went and got the break down of traits my T has identified).

Told me to just let things like that be and not worry... said I'd try but a bit long in the tooth to be changing that kind of behaviour.

But yeah... all in all it was good. She's back on shift on Wednesday and I sheepishly joked that did that mean I could slip badly tomorrow... but as long as sunday onwards went okay she wouldn't give me a telling off? She said no, and I should know her well enough by now to know she wouldn't let that slide hehe.