Today, I had a beautiful day, because she wasn't there and all my anxiety went away. I know that once this nightmare with her pass, regardless of the outcome, I'll be okay, I just hate feeling so deflated when she's around. I don't have enough fingers to count on naming all the mistakes she's made, but that's not important what is important is that she clearly resents me and wants me gone. Never experienced anything like this in my entire life, its mind bodling and extremely frustrating.

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