i need to ask this to people who know about abuse... when i was between ages 12 and 13 ther were 3 different adult men who kissed me in a way they shouldn't have. i only ever told anyone about one of them, our neighbor who was also friends with my dad. he was in his 50s and i was 13. i told my sister about a year later because my dad wanted me to go to the neighbors bbq and i threw a fit not wanting to go. i hated the way he looked at me. my sister told my dad but he stayed friends with the neighbor even after we moved across town. i asked him why once but he wouldnt talk to me about it. my brother says he thinks my dad maybe thought it wasnt as big a deal as i made it out to be.

what i wonder is, was it? was i making a big deal out of nothing? or maybe it was my own fault somehow? i didn't like it at all but why would all these grown men want to kiss me if i didnt do something to encourage it? i can't think of anything i did but its been 20 years now. is it stupid that i still even think about this stuff? i'm sorry i just can't figure it out. can anyone help me??