Yeah, that familiar stuck feeling. When it's at its worst I just have a lot of trouble with seeing a better future. I'm OK socially for while, but it's hard once you get home. It's hard when you're at work, and it's almost the worst when you're going through the motions of chores and daily life. Being stuck in bed feeling like nothing is worth it at least doesn't have that nagging feeling of "everything I'm doing sucks, especially this" when I'm going through the motions. I just end up hating everything, and I don't want to be that guy.

And then there's that "is this it?" feeling after those moments when you do get outside of yourself and it's better... it sometimes feels like they just aren't really enough to be worth it. I know that's just negativity, and I know I've felt better and things weren't always like that. It's hard once you're trapped in there though. I got away from that feeling for a while... the world and life doesn't really make it easy to stay there unfortunately.