Hi and welcome. I have very few friends because people make me anxious. When you drink at night do you mean alcohol? I am in recovery and none of my meds worked when mixed with alcohol (which is a depressant). Maybe if you break your goals down into smaller more attainable steps. Like instead of making a firm career choice list areas you'd find enjoyable as jobs. Take the list and research pros and cons. For me motivation is something I have to work for and it's not going to happen overnight or all at once. You're at a great age to start planning a path Imo. I didn't get married until I was 37.
Peace!