Thanks for that reply. I have lurked on this forum for a while, and I am pretty sure I have read a thread of yours, where I felt I could really relate to a lot of what you are saying.

I cant say I have a hatred of my sexuality, but even though it may seem like a contradiction of me feeling the virgin tag being a burden, I get a sense of overwhelming pride from being the way I am, As strange as that may seem.

I would be happy to carry on as I am, not 'getting any' doesnt affect me mentally or physically. The thing that bothers me is I feel like I have to in order to be immune to criticism & mockery. Something which probably stems from my past & personality type.

In regards to the whole therapist thing, its something I have wanted to do for a long time. Not only for this, but for a few other reasons too. I just cant bring myself to do it though. Its really, really hard - as it is for everyone, though it certainly doesnt help with the AvPD elements present within myself. It would also mean having to tell my mum and ask her for money, as I am unemployed and in college. She would be more than happy to do this for me, but again, I'd find it hard.

Thanks again for your reply!