That is interesting, and reminds me of the long period of my life when I was convinced I was severely mentally ill (mainly because of lengthy manic and depressive episodes and extreme delusions) but never sought treatment because I feared the consequences.

Eventually I reached a different conclusion and judged that I was, and always had been, mentally sound.

However, this created a "catch 22" situation. If I was mentally sound then I had been delusional all along about being mentally ill. Either way I had to admit there was a significant problem, and there was no way of escaping from it - so I went along to see a psychiatrist.

After 6 months of treatment my condition was somewhat stabilised by means of medication - but I still have issues with reality, and certainly don't take things at face value any more.

True and false. False and true. Chopping and changing from one day to the next.

If I were a delusional conspiracy theorist, I would swear that some hidden force was screwing around with reality - perhaps time-engineers from the future, micro-managing elements of their past in order to protect or enhance their future existence.

But of course I realise that (probably) this is just a result of the psychosis.