I am sorry that you are feeling the way you do. I noticed that you are in Sweden, but it seems like it's tough in lot of other countries to find work. I am fortunate that I have a job, but I wouldn't know what to do if it ended. I feel that my job could end in a heart-beat. I've seen it happen to others that I thought were better workers than me. I had been through unemployment and being discouraged to look for work.

As far as the relationships go, of what you are describing, I can very much relate. I am older than you and I have not been successful in relationships either. I have not had someone in many years and I feel lonely too. I've been somewhat successful with friends, but not in a relationship with a woman.

I am not on medications and have not seen a therapist lately. I had been to therapists a few years ago, but they didn't help. I don't feel like I need one now, but maybe someday I will.

If you are 30 +; to me you seem pretty young. I feel that a relationship can happen for you. I still have faith for myself that something can happen for me, but it does not look good. But you never know. I have done the "getting into activities" myself and it didn't work.

Funny thing is that there's a man at my job who is close to my age. He had a girlfriend in Sweden. I didn't know anything about her and never seen her. He has gone to visit her at her home. But he has a girlfriend now locally. That man at my job had been divorced and has a couple of children. Me, I have never been married and no kids. I hope my story would help you.