Woke up usual wake up and sleep and wake up throughout the night. Today, not well. Hard time fighting negative thought. Doing what I can. Praying, being thankful ....visualizing being with the dog I had to leave behind made me happy that she is in a house and yard. Love her so much...fighting...going between praying and meditating....maybe accepting or letting it to go god ...none seem to be working or might be working but I have lots of garbage/baggage that keeps needing to let go....or might be the same over and over again...when do I realize growth? Growth as an adult? Help!!!!! All is because I was listening to silence...was it?