Hi TJ, well to borrow a few words of wisdom from someone..........."that is the negativity speaking" .
Perhaps/understandably............building lasting connections/trusting people/knowing that you're worthy of not just winding up being rejected by people/knowing that you are able to really matter to people/coping with or accepting other peoples unpredictability is hard for you right now. But that's just it, we're talking right now.
And you know you are/have already broken down barriers in developing rapports/being able to be open with people and that does all go towards showing you can move/are moving forward.
And look at some of the friendships you've managed to hold onto even though you've gone through some really hard times!!! That says so much about you!!

And besides that, your caring, sensitivity, consideration towards others has come across in so many of your posts- you aren't going to be alone!!! You're going to get people sticking by you because you're you!!!



Alison